To be with you.
Day 30: Where do you see your future going with her?
The future is always going to be in the future. But it’s what we make happen now that effects the future. So right now, it’s not about seeing my future or even imagining it. It’s about what I’m doing to achieve this future with her.
She recently got some fantastic news about Grad school and I must be the proudest girlfriend alive to know that all her hard work has paid off and she’s getting to do something she’s always wanted.
As for me, my future is with her. By her side. Supporting her.
At the end of the day, this relationship has been extremely hard. We come from different cultures, different countries, different backgrounds, different races and what complicates it more in the eyes of her parents and of the law is that our relationship is a same-sex one.
We never thought that the day would come where this amazing news would arrive but circumstances revolving around me actually being there with her so complex.
But my future is not ultimately determined by me. It is determined by the US government in granting me a visa. Find a job that will sponsor a visa, which is nigh on impossible today. Finding the funds to study over there to be with her, at which point I am desperate enough to spend the money I usually would on cigarettes on scratch cards instead.
My future is irrevocably tied to hers and I can see it so clearly. So despite these complications, for my future. My present is focusing on finding ways around them.
To give her the future she sees. To give her our future.
My future is living with you Tanya. It’s sharing an apartment with you, owning a pet with you, getting married to you, having a family with you.
But for now, my goal is just to be with you first, to be out there with you. So I can give you all the other things I see in my future with you.
I’ll take care of you and I’ll never leave you.
I’ll find ways around this problem in our path.
I love you.
Day 29: When will you see her next?
I will see her in exactly one month, one week and 3 days from now.
Day 28: If you could have her with you physically for the next 5 hours, what would you do?
Kiss her with all the love I could muster. Make love to her with all the passion I can give. Cuddle her with all the comfort I have in me. No words. Just us.
Day 27: If you had the money/time/connections/whatever to get her any gift in the world, what would it be?
Well, I thought this one would have been quite obvious…
All her tuition fees paid, and a house, with me in it and a green card so we could be together without time limits.
Day 26: Sweetest thing she has done for you
Looked after me when I projectile vomited in a Japanese train station.
Now this may not sound very sweet! haha
But she has Emetophobia. (Yes you do Tanya <3)
Which is a fear of being sick or even seeing sick.
Despite this, she ran over to my side and helped pick me up and walked me to a nearby toilet where she helped me clean up as well.
And when we got home, she put me in the shower, sat me down and washed my hair.
That’s the sweetest thing the has ever done for me.
Day 25: One thing that he/she does that pisses you off
She’s very stubborn.
To the point where if there is something that is wrong she will think it’s easier to just end the relationship than to see it’s just something small for me and that I’m able to work it out.
She would say she gets it from her father,
but I would say, it’s an attribute that protects her .
And I still love her for it, it still makes me smile ^^
Day 24: Describe her physically and emotionally/personality-wise
Oh this ones a bit hard =P
When I first met her she was so very different. She was distant and very blunt.She had all her walls up around people she doesn’t know. She is also a person that is quick to judge.
Which was very difficult for me to break when I was perusing her because she had already had her mind made up about me.
She knows she is very manipulative and she’s very good at it. Sometimes for the best and sometimes for the worse. It’s not malicious, I know she’s just looking out for herself, though it didn’t feel that way at the time.
The more I got to know her though, the walls came down and it was then that i really felt that I got to know her true self. She is full of life and a wonderfully upbeat person. She finds beauty in the smallest things and appreciates that which other people might just gloss over. She is delightfully distracted by many things so with her it’s never a dull moment. She is excitable and happy.
Other times she is determined and driven. It will get done and it’ll get done well. She is the hard working student, the loving partner and the dutiful daughter all at once but never at the same time.
Physically she is so very beautiful. And I don’t use it lightly.
This is what I think of her. She has an elegance surround her. When she walks she holds her head high and her back is straight. Her make up accents her eyes and her hair always falls perfectly around her. Although she would say her face is round, I don’t see that. Her face structure is round but her cheek bones are high and her skin is smooth and her eyes perfectly reflect her smile.
Her ass is not flat, whatever she says. It is rounded and petit but there is no lack of ass here. The same can be said for her breasts which fit perfectly in the palms of my hands.
Aesthetically, she is stunning.
Emotionally, she changes a lot depending on what mood she is in. There are times when she can’t afford to feel and nothing can penetrate those walls she puts up. Other times she will cry for hours. Our relationship was based on the physical aspect when we were first together. When in those types of vulnerable moods, I would hold her until she felt she could break down. Without words. Just the soft comfort of being able to be vulnerable which does not come easy to her.
She is a tough cookie and it takes some coaxing and time for her to open up but in the end it’s worth it.
Now there really is only a month and a half between us my love.
LDR Challenge: Day 23
Day 23: Do you have a song? Which one is it? (if you don’t, then what is something that always reminds you of him/her)
We don’t really have a set song that defines our relationship I think, we’re pretty open with music and not only like each others taste but it works because we do have such different personal preferences towards music.
So this is a song that I made for her. We were talking about it yesterday actually ^^
I made this song for her birthday and it wasn’t till almost 6 months later did she finally acknowledge that it was a song especially made for her!
It’s about things we experienced together, but also the acceptance that our relationship would turn into a long distance one. Our hopes and the things we wanted to do when we could finally be together again.
I’m sorry my accent kind of comes out when I sing…
Somewhere by Katie Fry and additional vocals from Daniel Robinson and Joshua Smith
For Tanya. For my love.